Ignore what isn't there but pretends to be

New years eve, I should be excited right? well that is not the case, another year goes by and I still feel like I have not accomplished a thing! I look around me as everyone's life moves along and they grow but I'm still a little girl stuck in a barbie sized house, why can't I just break out? For once can I move the same pace as everyone else? The sad thing, it doesn't look like I can, my doubt won't stop me from trying though.

My mind has been so frozen, my days have been replaced by people, my life has been turned right side up but I liked it better upside down. What can I do? Do I follow everyone else and see what's the life like? Or maybe I could just sleep while the years go by and we're no longer babies but adults.

This shouldn't be how the new year is starting right, I should have a positive attitude and a beautiful smile that should last for months. So, that is what I will do and somewhere along the way i'll meet someone so unexpected to enlighten me about the life I have. Hopefully, that person will stay in my life as we explore the darkness until we reach the light and after the light shines upon our dirty faces will find that the light was with us all along.

- I know this sounds like nonsense but I'm sure it really means something to someone.