Happiness is only a mile away....

I am so frustrated this is supposed to be the happiest week, my family has come to visit everything was suppose to go great this Christmas but instead all I'm getting is judgement and people telling me how I should be doing things. Its my life I choose my goals, my religion, my relationship, and my friendships. My goals are going to school for animal health science and traveling abroad which I believe are pretty great goals. My religion, I'm studying to really find out whats real and I think everyone is trying to do that. My relationships, a guy my family doesn't like but I love and I haven't made a firm decision so for now we are friends. I don't see my ways as bad, all I'm trying to get out of life is HAPPINESS why cant people just be happy with that.

I Wish.......

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.” ― Bob Marley

black and white, blue and yellow, pink and red

Friday is the day, The day is Friday.

How does something so amazing, so extremely satisfying turn awry? It never fails, not saying its not possible for something to stay the way you'd like but the odds of that happening aren't always the best. Sometimes I just wish people would look past the selfishness, look past the bad, look past anything that can get in the way of your happiness and just live for once. All I would like is to live without the stress without the judgement without a care in the world. I'm the type of person to put everyone's life before mine and boy does that never work out as planned. its like you care so much you'd do anything just to keep these people full of joy ( the look in someones eyes that you make happy ahhh priceless ) but most times in my situations people take advantage and instead of wanting me in their life they feel like they need me and I never want someone to need me its a way better feeling to truly be wanted.

Well LIFE you've done it again, you've thrown me the biggest bone and you expect me to eat it :/ not that bones are that satisfying but ya know... who really cares. All I know is that I'm going to take on anything life throws at me and I will never give up because what fun is that. I just really need to work on the stress part man does stress really take the fun away.


ps. no stress, just live.

where do we go from here?

Happy Me Day :D

Happy 19TH Birthday to Me!!!!!!!

I'm lost, somebody help.

Go To The Light

What's life without the ability to move to the light? Living in darkness is what many prefer but what's really in the dark but sadness, madness, confusion, and evil. Why live somewhere you know you will never grow? I've been told everything happens for a reason but for some reason I just don't believe being unhappy or mad is a process we have to go through. We were created with all the love in the world but where did it all go? It's like people forgot like we all grew but did we do it with all the right forms of life. Are we missing out on something that could really change peoples lives forever. So many questions but not enough answers. It's crazy how we've birth geniuses yet some of the simplest questions are still unanswered. What are we really living for? Life of happiness or pure evil?

There can be a difference, right?

When it comes to love how come you're always too young? I understand parents and others don't want to see you get hurt but you can't expect people on the outside to understand what's going on inside you know. That to me is a big reason why relationships fail and people rarely get married and if they do divorce isn't far behind. Instead of listening to everyone and their experiences listen to your heart and what you want to experience. I love love and I wouldn't let anyone come between the happiness I get with that special person.

Am I just a naive little girl, waiting for a dream that only happens while you sleep?

Just take a day to ramble or maybe two.

Life is like a snail with a lot of us. We're in a rush to get what we want and complete our goals but as a human being we can only do so much, it really sucks when you think about it. I mean if Adam and even never disobeyed Jehovah and we all came out perfect do you really think things would be like this I mean in all actuality we'd be perfect our minds would be at its full capacity. Doesn't it make you think when the littlest things our actually bigger then we think. For example, a grape something very small and simple like most fruits but we need these fruits to stay health and not end up with a killer disease, crazy thought. Lol I'm literally just rambling like an old lady but have you had one of those days where everything just comes to you at once and you can't keep it in its like even tho many may not understand your train of thought or even care for that matter but you just have to let it out because there is always one person listening. One person looking for someone with your thoughts. It's really amazing to me how this world work how we as people work our way thru the world. I love it.

Living A Dream.

Dream without fear, love without limits.

Being bad never felt so good.

Question? Can you give me an answer.

What is it about loving another person that drives a person crazy? All your emotions change and your almost like a different person, a person no one has ever seen but this one person always seems to bring out. I just need to know what is it about love?

missing you....

I haven't made a post in foreverrrrrr, I really miss my blog :/ but being an adult takes up all your time.


I hope everyone is doing well (:




I have to go now, see ya later alligators.

Make a change

Is it just me or are the people really going crazy? starting with the young and ending with the old. I don't usually watch nor read the news but I started a few weeks ago because I feel like no matter how sad I still want to know what is happening around the world. I should be the one to tell you guys, its definitely not good. I read about a 10 year old girl giving birth, A 14 year boy killing a 13 year old girl, a 14 year old boy killing his family, a shooting at a high school. A lot of people will sit and wonder man what went wrong, where are their parents, who showed them this type of behavior. All I will tell you guys is to look in the mirror, go on and do it I DARE YOU! When you look at yourself are you perfect? I doubt it we are all imperfect and we talk so much about changing the world but all we do is sin, make it worse, become complete hypocrites. So, the next time we ask what happened with those people just think did you stop to make some sort of example? Did you try to change someones life? Were you nice to everyone? I doubt it. The message I'm trying to send, do not ask questions you already know the answer to. Do not act like you try to help people and try to make things better when you don't. Answer to what you have not done. Our young children are like this today because of what they witness, what they pick up, what happens to them. They don't know any better if you don't show them any better.


One person can change the world, BE THAT ONE PERSON.

Some people just can't handle it....

Tell me what is your definition of happiness, what makes you want to live life day by day?

when I woke up the sun spoke to me, made me feel like today would be the best day then I realized this happens everyday (:


peace, love, and happiness.

so you say you'll stay

Friends, when you think you have them it turns out it was just an illusion but what you learn is you meet a lot of people in your life some of which made a very big impression on your life and some that just didn't matter but no one ever tells you that those people won't be there forever.

The ones who do stay they're more then friends, they start to become one with you.