Happiness is only a mile away....

I am so frustrated this is supposed to be the happiest week, my family has come to visit everything was suppose to go great this Christmas but instead all I'm getting is judgement and people telling me how I should be doing things. Its my life I choose my goals, my religion, my relationship, and my friendships. My goals are going to school for animal health science and traveling abroad which I believe are pretty great goals. My religion, I'm studying to really find out whats real and I think everyone is trying to do that. My relationships, a guy my family doesn't like but I love and I haven't made a firm decision so for now we are friends. I don't see my ways as bad, all I'm trying to get out of life is HAPPINESS why cant people just be happy with that.

I Wish.......

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.” ― Bob Marley

black and white, blue and yellow, pink and red

Friday is the day, The day is Friday.

How does something so amazing, so extremely satisfying turn awry? It never fails, not saying its not possible for something to stay the way you'd like but the odds of that happening aren't always the best. Sometimes I just wish people would look past the selfishness, look past the bad, look past anything that can get in the way of your happiness and just live for once. All I would like is to live without the stress without the judgement without a care in the world. I'm the type of person to put everyone's life before mine and boy does that never work out as planned. its like you care so much you'd do anything just to keep these people full of joy ( the look in someones eyes that you make happy ahhh priceless ) but most times in my situations people take advantage and instead of wanting me in their life they feel like they need me and I never want someone to need me its a way better feeling to truly be wanted.

Well LIFE you've done it again, you've thrown me the biggest bone and you expect me to eat it :/ not that bones are that satisfying but ya know... who really cares. All I know is that I'm going to take on anything life throws at me and I will never give up because what fun is that. I just really need to work on the stress part man does stress really take the fun away.


ps. no stress, just live.

where do we go from here?

Happy Me Day :D

Happy 19TH Birthday to Me!!!!!!!

I'm lost, somebody help.